We had a lovely meal with friends on Thanksgiving. There were so many delicious food items, the kids played well together, and lots of good conversation. It was a very pleasant and relaxing time.
On Friday we cleaned the house and then put up the Christmas decorations. This is a little earlier than we usually do it. Often we go out of town for Thanksgiving and put the decorations up the first weekend in December. It was a pleasant day so we even got a little yard work done.
On Saturday we made some returns and went a shopping a bit. I say a bit, but we had to drive to town to shop and were gone from our house for too many hours. We came home and did some crafting, and getting ready for Sunday, finish preparing my lesson, iron clothes, and so on.
Mainly I have been trying to keep busy to keep my mind off of Tuesday. It is not really working. So today I surrendered my thoughts over. The rest of my family has been thinking about it too. Not Baby though. She is only thinking about her teeth that are starting to come in. Tonight we had another family discussion, with a question and answer period. C is glad when his friends tell him that his mom survived cancer before and she will survive again. L is trying to find out exactly what will happen. She is not satisfied with the answers we have for her. They are not specific enough. Finally we told her the first time is an experiment and then we will be better able to predict the results for the other treatments. I wish I knew too, then I could tell them and prepare them better. Right now they are just getting ready for a change they do not understand, that will make things more difficult in the short term and better in the long term.
My oncologist is a hopeful practical doctor. Every time I talk to him I think chemo treatments might be easier this time. This goes against the experience I have already had this time around. Everything else has been harder this time, but still there is hope.
On Friday we cleaned the house and then put up the Christmas decorations. This is a little earlier than we usually do it. Often we go out of town for Thanksgiving and put the decorations up the first weekend in December. It was a pleasant day so we even got a little yard work done.
On Saturday we made some returns and went a shopping a bit. I say a bit, but we had to drive to town to shop and were gone from our house for too many hours. We came home and did some crafting, and getting ready for Sunday, finish preparing my lesson, iron clothes, and so on.
Mainly I have been trying to keep busy to keep my mind off of Tuesday. It is not really working. So today I surrendered my thoughts over. The rest of my family has been thinking about it too. Not Baby though. She is only thinking about her teeth that are starting to come in. Tonight we had another family discussion, with a question and answer period. C is glad when his friends tell him that his mom survived cancer before and she will survive again. L is trying to find out exactly what will happen. She is not satisfied with the answers we have for her. They are not specific enough. Finally we told her the first time is an experiment and then we will be better able to predict the results for the other treatments. I wish I knew too, then I could tell them and prepare them better. Right now they are just getting ready for a change they do not understand, that will make things more difficult in the short term and better in the long term.
My oncologist is a hopeful practical doctor. Every time I talk to him I think chemo treatments might be easier this time. This goes against the experience I have already had this time around. Everything else has been harder this time, but still there is hope.
I love you and your posts. You are one of the strongest people I know. My family prays for you. Even my children who may not know who you are, but they know you are my friend. Good luck this week:)
ReplyDeleteWe are sending lots of positive thoughts and prayers your way. I know no stronger person in this world.
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